Okay listen. Oh no wait, I meant hear me out, by reading this text. My name is Susanne, but people call me Suus. And I gotta admit the nickname makes me feel more loved, eventhough I am very satisfied with the name my parents chose and I think it suits my character. Anyways, I am 21 years old when I write this, it is the end of February and I had no intention to start this writing. I got overwhelmed, found out there is a more likable way to design my Word documents and then I got enthousiastic. Like girl, what?! You actually really do not have a life, now do you? Yes I do. I live in the Netherlands, which makes me an official Dutchie. But I don’t feel like one, since I was raised in Belgium on a farm.
And am now about to move to a student house in the city. I think in America I would be called a college student. But I pretty much still feel like a teenager trying to figure out how the world keeps on turning. I kinda feel like an all around the world type of girl, half city-half village. A towny farmer girl? I have certain aspects of a feminist, but I will fight for human rights, no matter what gender. I have no clue what professional job will eventually be my proffesion. But for now I know I am doing all I can to get the very best out of myself and people that (at some point) let me in. And as if it is not hard enough to figure out my own behaviour, I am currently focusing on children with behavioural issues.
As much as I love to help others, I do realise that it is always a risk to flee for your own problems. Because in 2021, knowing what you want and who you are, no longer seems to be enough. Challenges don’t stop when they are out of your sight, issues don’t solve once you shed your tears, and words are harder to be found than ever before in history. We need people, but meanwhile they are our biggest risks. The trust, bounding, and I hate to bring it up, but most of it all starts with love. Love is pretty much the most bizarre structure that our human bodies are made of. Only sometimes the ability to show emotions that are involved, seem to be to far away on the background to be noticed.
This. THIS is my very start over of this blog. Me realising that I don’t have to delete the past, to start a new beginning. I’m gonna put the past where it belongs, behind me. And I bring the happy memories and beautiful moments with me, as a shield for negativity. And when I look back, I realise how far I’ve come. Eventhough there is a long path ahead of me. I need to take the lessons I learned into the future that is unknown. I’m not gonna make my life perfect, but I’m gonna chose the feeling of hapiness, even if it is just for a second. Because you know you are really happy, when you can’t capture your actual feelings in the framing of a picture. And in the end, that is what your life is all about. Right or wrong?
Smiles and tears,